Hurt

The wrestling business is so bi-polar! One second you are loving everyone. Hitting em with that "Brother, Brother" the next you are wishing for the same person to be hit by a bus. What? It's true! I feel like I have gone through multiple emotions within seconds because of the business. I guess that's what comes with it. Thing is ill never be ready for it. I have gone through this feeling before. The feeling of failure that I wasn't doing the right thing! That I wasn't showing them the right thing.... Yet it had absolutely nothing to do with me. This was their choice. They wanted to leave. I've just now been able to accept that and guess what?!?! Happens all over again!

Am I letting some too close to the heart? Am I allowing them to bond with me. Should I pull back and not lead with emotion rather be a meek cloak of myself and just show them how to do something but not give a fuck in reality. Because in the end they will just leave?!?! A friend once said a line and I've made fun of it a thousand plus times but it really does make sense regarding to this. "Love is Pain, Pain is Love"